Today I'm 26! January 29th, 2011

Today I am happy and think that I am right where I am supposed to be, but it took a long time to feel that way. Today I am another year older, definitely smarter...prepared to love like I've never been hurt. Today I am 26.

This past year I grew so much, I learned so much and more than anything-I loved sooooooo much. I gave up my dream of going to Miss USA and instead chose to say yes to the man who asked me to marry him.

I decided that my relationship with my dad hurt me entirely too much entirely too often and for the most part cut my losses.

I had the best interview of my life with Kanye West. I was so proud of myself that day. I did a lot for the American Heart Association and I will continue to do that.

I was a bridesmaid.

I traveled a lot- LA, Vegas, Saint Lucia...It was amazing. I stayed at an amazing Bed and Breakfast. I had my faith tested...I kept my faith.

I buried my niece and it hurt so bad, but it brought me so much closer to my sisters.

I was talked into trying sea food. I hated it and I will never do it again. I saw Snoop Dogg, Lauren Hill and Janet Jackson in concert.

I watched more episodes of Law and Order SVU than I can remember. I had so many late night movie nights with my love.

I cried a lot! but I smiled so much more.

I realized just how important Claire, Kiley, Mary Clare, Linnea and Cristina are to me.

I realized that people change and me and Shannon picked up right where we left off.

I said goodbye to working with Tony for so long and actually had the courage to do my own show. I fell in love with doing my own show.

I learned that people like Jessica, the lusters, Brenda Torre, Katie, Giselle, Renee, Brandon and Becky love me unconditionally.

I bought a house.

I had my feelings hurt, I hurt peoples' feelings-I felt bad over both.

I was blessed enough to have someone like Missy Germain-MOMMA MISSY in my life!

I missed Michael Jackson so I listened to Human Nature a lot. I learned not to expect people to behave or react to something the way that I would.

I realized that my mom is ultimately the best friend I have ever had.

I laughed until I cried with Tony and B-right. I thanked God for them often.

I realized that I want to start a family soon.

I had my trust broken, I cried a lot, I decided to forgive.

I made it through another year.

Happy Birthday to me.